Note to self.

It's funny how Mondays in the summer aren't that bad.

I've been thinking over the past few days about the way my life looks. And, for the first time, I've been looking at it from God's point of view. From my own point of view. Usually, I get caught up looking at my life from another person's point of view, whether it be my parents' or my friends' or a boy's...I forget to think about the way God sees my life. The way I see my life.

At Passion in January, Andy Stanley said something that has truly been laid on my heart as I look at my life:

"It's always a mistake to decide what you want to do before deciding who you want to be."

For the majority of these past few years, I think I have been focused on all the wrong things. I've been focused on schoolwork, pleasing those around me, relationships (friendships and dating), what my future will look like, achieving my goals, etcetera, etcetera. Amidst all that, I never took the time to just be still and let God. To just be still and be me. Now, I'm not saying that focusing on those things is wrong. It is definitely not. That's life. What I'm saying is that I lost myself in all of it. And now, here I am, an almost (woah) sophomore in college and I feel like I am barely in touch with myself.

So this is my goal: to not let myself get lost in life. At this point in my life, I feel more independent than I ever have before (which is sort of sad because I'm still ultimately depending on my parents...but I'm ok with that :D ). But really, I feel like I have control over my life. I don't feel like I need anyone to make me feel good about myself. Right now, all that I desire is discovering my identity in Christ. Because I've found that it truly is the only thing that matters. Everything else will fall into place.